Someone who I barely know told me the other day that this was going to be "my year." I don't know what that means, but today feels pretty darn good.
I am a decent teacher I think. I've won some awards, and I've gotten some pretty nice praise. But I've never really loved doing it. I enjoy moments of it, but I always feel like there's more that I can do. There's a good chance that at some point I'll teach something again, but right now...I'm not a teacher!!! Ok, well I'm cheating a little. I am teaching four online courses... But I don't have to dress like a teacher! I don't have to duck in the halls from other faculty members who don't like me. I don't have anyone yelling, screaming, crying, or puking in my office. True, now I have to dress like a lawyer and be a poor student again, but at least for today, that feels good.
I don't consider myself to be wishy-washy. I'm pretty good at making decisions. But I also like to leave my options open. That's what I've been doing about jobs for the last few years. I just take everything that comes my way, and do waaaaay too much. But last night my brain/body wouldn't let me do it anymore, and get this... I think I was rewarded today for trying to be a little bit human and not work too much.
When I called Duquesne to ask them to consider switching me to a day student, they said they'd be happy to do that. Not only that, as a day student I am eligible for half my tuition paid the first year and almost all of my tuition paid each subsequent year provided I maintain certain grades. Seriously!? That's all I had to do?! Why did no one tell me this!? I don't know what my brain/body knew that I didn't, but the decision to not go back to SRU was awesome. Good news!